My story goes a little like this:
My husband and I decided after being married for 3 years that we wanted to start trying to have a baby. So, we tried.. and tried and tried. We knew that it probably wouldn't happen the first few months because I'd been on bcp for a while. We figured it needed to get all out of my system. We finally realized that we might have a problem. I went to my GYN and talked to her about it. She sent me to get an HSG (hystospalgenogram). It came back all clear which ment I didn't have any blockages or anything like that. So she decided to have me come in and do a post coidal test. That should that Jeff had slow swimmers. She recommended us go to a RE (reproductive endocrinologist). She set us up and appointment with Dr. Reshef.
We were so nervous the first time we went to Dr. Reshef. We had no clue what to expect. He sat us down in his office and had a long talk and lots of questions. We talked about options in fertility treatments. The first thing he mentioned was IVF. We asked him about anything else first. We did our first IUI that next month with him. Jeff's counts were bad, but he told us they were fine. Of course the IUI failed and we were crushed. We continued to do more IUI's with him. We did 3 unmedicated IUI's. We then had another consult with Dr. Reshef. He wasn't very happy that we had a million questions. By this time I had been on websites and discussion groups. I had learned so much from ladies that were going through the same thing I was. So, we asked him about things and why we weren't being given meds or ultrasounds or anything. He reluctantly gave me femera. I did one ultrasound with him. It was the baseline to make sure there were no cysts or whatever. He never checked after taking femera to even see if I had produced an egg. We did our fourth IUI with him that month. Jeff's counts again were so low. I can remember Dr. Reshef walking into the room and telling me the numbers. And did the IUI and patted me on the leg and said "It only takes one." I was in tears. I knew that it wasn't going to work. He was so cold that day. So after it failed I called my GYN again and talked to her about him. She had no idea that I was even doing treatments with him. He was suppose to send her updates on how he was treating me. So she decided to call him. She called me back the next day and was so mad! He told her that he didn't want to hurt Jeff's feelings by telling him that something was wrong with him. (Jeff had even undergone surgery to remove a varicocle to see if that would help his count increase.) My GYN told him that he just didn't understand. That I had a twin that was very fertile and it hurt me watching her get pregnant. He had the nerve to tell my GYN "Well, Melanie married the wrong husband." Holy crap! I told her that I wasn't going back to him and asked if there was anyone else out there. She told me about Dr. Haas and got us an appointment with him.
Dr. Haas was a totally different experience. A much better experience. My first appointment of course I was asked a million questions. And then I talked to him. Then, he wanted to do an exam on me and bloodwork and stuff. Totally different from the last guy. Dr. Haas has such a better attitude and personality. He was much easier to approach and ask any question to than Dr. Reshef. He wanted to do a couple more IUI's with him. We were all for it because he was super nice. He put me on Clomid for the first IUI with him. Clomid was good for the eggs bad for the lining. He did a baseline ultrasound. The day of our first ultrasound we were paying out. Dr. Haas had called a girl back into the office. He had called her back just to make sure that she was okay.. emotionally. It was so good to see how he cared for other patients. I knew we would be taken care of. Then he did another ultrasound later in my cycle to see if I responded to the clomid. Wow.. this man actually does things! He actually checks to see how his patients are progressing during their cycles. And seeing the follicle.. what an amazing thing. Our IUI failed. He wanted to do a cycle with Menopur. Fine by us. We did and it failed. I never knew that a doctor could care about his patients like Dr. Haas does. He always made sure that I was okay and everything else was. He's great. I couldn't ask for a better RE. He talked to us about IVF. We decided that it was the thing for us to do.
So, here were are at the doorstep of IVF. We are getting ready to start pretty soon. I've been taking bcp's and am getting ready to start another set. I'm excited and scared all at the same time. We want a baby so badly. But, we also know that we have to trust God. We have to seek Him through all of this!!!!! He is the Creator! I think that's one thing I like about Dr. Haas is that he is always telling me to pray about it. I have given my infertily to God! I have to let him be in control. Even if it ends up with a different answer than I want.. I know it's a God thing!! God answers prayers. We are praying that this IVF cycle works for us. We decided that wer are only taking one chance at IVF.
That is my story so far. I know it's a long one.. but it's been a long time coming. Infertility is a daily struggle. Some days are easier than others. It's got it's ups and downs. I'm on the infertility rollercoaster and I'm ready to get off. Hopefully soon!
