It's a no go

Well, we aren't getting the baby we thought we'd get. Honestly, I'm not really sure what all happened. Tesla called me almost every other day. She had made a decision to give us the baby. She really wanted someone that would love her baby and she told me she knew we would. Well, the attornys have been trying to have a meeting with her and her mom. Her mom wouldn't contact the attorneys. So, they told us that if we didn't hear anything be Wed. of last week that they strongly advise us not to pursue the adoption. I don't think Tesla's mom had a clue about how adoption works. I don't think she realized that Tesla was in charge of the whole thing. It's her baby, she's in charge. Her mom had told the birth father that he could be in the room when the baby was born and that he could see that baby. All kinds of strange things. Tesla had a VPO against this guy. When he gets abusive when you are pregnat.. probably not a good idea to let him come around. Anyway. I haven't heard from Tesla in a week now. I figured she might call and let me know what happened. I'm okay with her changing her mind. She has that right. And we didn't have any money or anything really invested in this baby. Just a few emotions that's all. It was hard to hear the news. Jeff and I were both looking forward to being parents in July. It's just not what God had in mind for us. We pretty much heard Him loud and clear in this situtation. He took us out as fast as we got in. I wish nothing but the best for Tesla. She is a super sweet girl with a lot of potential. I just hope she realizes that. Please continue to pray for her and her baby. I know she is a strong girl. I just hope things work out for her. Jeff and I talked about what if they come back later and want us to take the baby (before it's born and all). We just don't know. We'd have to really pray about it. You know, God answers our prayers even if it's in a way that we don't want. We didn't want to lose this baby, but He has a reason for us not getting this baby. He is still making our perfect baby. I couldn't be more excited about that. I know one day I will get to meet my baby. I can't wait.

Our agency called me last week and told me that our fingerprints are back. YAY! We can finally start our homestudy. We are going to an Enrich program this week. Not really sure what we will be doing but they said it would only take a few hours. We are still moving forward with our agency. They are so wonderful. Sweet, sweet people. I am working on our profile and trying to get it ready. I've been trying to find pictures of Jeff and I together. For some reason that has been hard for me. I guess because when we go on vacations or anywhere it's just us. I did go raid my mom's pics tonight. Got a few there. I'll see if my sis has any of us and maybe some with her kiddos. It is fun for me to put this together. So.. we are still marching on with our adoption. God is taking us where He wants us and we are following!

Update on potential baby situation

Things are progessing well. We are trying not to get our hopes really high just in case this all falls through. You never know. I have talked to our potential birth mom on the phone. We talked for about 3 hours. She's easy to talk to. She does talk a lot. She is just your typical 17 yr old. She told her attorney that she enjoyed talking to me and that she would like to meet us. So, I called her and asked her if she would like to go to dinner with Jeff and I.

We had planned to go to Zio's in Bricktown (it is a place in the city that has been built up (use to be industrial back in the day) and has lots of eatin' places and a water canal). So, Jeff and I get there and she is still up in the air about how she is getting here. Her mom did not allow her to use her car. Tesla doesn't have a car right now. Which that makes me mad because I see how really her mom isn't being supportive. So, she calls me and tells me her mom won't let her use the car and she can't get there. So, we ask her if there is somewhere close we can meet her. She was like.. well.. there's a Grandy's close, we can meet there. I'm thinking.. really.. Grandy's.. we wanted to take you to a nice dinner. But, if that is where she is comfortable.. so be it. So we get there and wait for her. She comes in with a friend. We were thinking she would come in with maybe her mom. Not so much. We talked. She is very easy to talk to. She gave Jeff and I ultrasound pictures of the baby. We talked about us and about her and stuff. She's just your typical 17 year old. She asked me if I wanted to feel the baby move. I hesitated, but did. Jeff did also. She asked me if I wanted to come to her birthing classes with her. She said she would find out when they are and let me know. She wants us in the room when she has the baby. Jeff did ask her if her mom and family was supportive of her doing this. She hestitated, there was a long pause and she said yes. So, we are going to talk to the attorney about it. She asked us if we were comfortable with her. We were. We asked the same. She said she was really comfortable with us. She's nothing like I had pictured. I figured with her being Native American she might have a little darker skin. We were told she is full blood. She is about as white as me (and ya'll know that's pretty darn white). She had her lip pierced and tongue pierced. Like I've said, she's just your typical, clueless 17 year old. Jeff and I are going to call the attorney Monday and ask a few questions. They are going to talk to her about her wanting a baby shower. We talked to our attorney about that already. She said that is their job, they head off things like that and tell her it's not gonna happen. We think she is a little confused about the process and stuff, so we want to make sure she understands how it all works and all that good stuff. But, other than that, things went well last night. I will let you all know how it progresses. Thank you all so much for thinking about us and praying for us. Please continue to pray about this.

It's all happened so fast. We are still waiting for our homestudy to be done. ACK! We are just praying this works out. However it works out, that is how God wants it to be. We'll see.