My ball is rolling again

Well, here we go again. I started bcp and aygestin yesterday. I got my calendar today. It is coming up so quick! I'm really excited. We are doing things totally different. Which is fine by me. I'm doing microdose Lupron (which I start Sept. 11) and then two days later I will start my Follistim shots. He has me starting out at 225 units twice a day. Wow. But, since I was a poor responder last time we gotta change things up. I gave my boss all my dates today and she was really excited. (I was shocked.) I told her that I was going to take a week off when the ET came around. She told me that if I needed to take more time that was fine with her. He told me not to do anything that would hurt my chances. Wow. I can't believe she's actually being nice. I'm really excited to get started again. At least I do know what to expect this time. And I know that I CAN give myself shots. Go me!!! I have to go in Sept 2 for my "clap" test and have all my blood drawn again! YICKS. I dread the blood draw! I still hate people poking me with needles.

My ball is rolling. And it's just going to continue to get faster and faster. I'm SO excited! I'm ready to get this show on the road and continue my journey. God is totally in control. He knows the outcome of this IVF. God knows the best outcome for us and we will be okay with whatever happens. I'm God is in control of this! I wouldn't have it any other way.

That's it for now. I may not be able to blog as much as I want to. My stupid computer screen died again. I hate that thing. The people told us it has a short in it. Dude.. we just fixed it like a couple of months ago. FIX IT!!! So, I'll do my best for the updates and stuff.

Men have to be the lesser species!

I love my husband with all my heart! I swear there are days that he just drives me crazy! The past few days have been some of them. He has now proceeded to lose his cell phone. He had to go to a call the other night. It was a gross call (dead body that had been there a week or so). He came home that night and stripped in the garage. He swore that he was stinky. He was taking off all his garb and now his phone is missing. He can't find it anywhere and can't remember where he put it. He had thought that it was at the cleaners in the pocket of his uniform. How about no. He called me tonight and said he'd been thinking about it. He thinks he put it on my truck and left it there. That's just great!!! I'm sure it's smooshed into a million pieces by now. What drives me crazy is that he didn't even start looking for it really until after he got his uniforms back from the cleaners. If he would have thought about it that night we could have searched for it and found it. Oh no.. that's too easy! I'm so glad I took insurance out on his phone. I figured that if he had to arrest someone and they got unruly at least his phone would be insured if it got broken. So, he gets to make a call the the phone company and tell them that he lost his phone. Crazy man. I love him to death!
Today I get a call at work and it was my fantastic husband. My first thought was YAY!! He found his phone!! Oh no! He has now completely locked himself out of the house. I swear. Although he had the extra key to his car with him for some reason. He was probably out there looking for his phone.. hahahaha. So he comes to my office and gets my door key. Well, later I get another call from him. Guess what my first thought was. Yep.. thought he'd found the phone. NOPE! He is informing me that I need to go to my parents house and get the house key from them. I thought he had just left my key at their house. NOPE! That goodness they have a spare key. He couldn't find his keys when he left for work (I found them in the closet when I got home). And, he left my key in the house. See.. there's a pattern here. The man is crazy! He just needs to slow down. So, there's my thoughts on men being the lesser species. I have a husband who can't keep up with crap! He's a good husband.. just scatter brained sometimes!

Tag.... I'm it!

I was tagged by Nikki a few days ago but I haven't been able to really get on here.

The rules of tag are:

Link to the person who tagged you
Post the rules to your blog
Write 6 random things about myself
Tag 6 people at the end of your post and link to them
Let each person you have tagged know by leaving a comment on their blog
Let the tagger know when your entry is posted.



Here are 6 random things about me:

* I'm an identical twin. Yes, I have those crazy weird feelings that I know something is wrong or good with her. I had her morning sickness with BOTH of her pregnancies.

* I HATE the sound of clipping fingernails. It makes me sick. Especially when the deputy sheriff at work clips his into his draw and then shuts it.

* I love to scrapbook. I wish I had more time to do it but I do it when I can.

* I really like to cook. I don't cook huge extravigant meals, but I like to cook. I don't cook really big meals much now since Jeff is a cop. He doesn't like to eat big meals on his 30 minute lunch and then go out and possibly have to chase someone on foot.

* I obsess about gift wrapping. If I wrap a gift it has to be perfect. I know I'm strange. I like the tight corners and I make sure to press all the edges so that they stand out. (I'm strange.. I'm telling you!!)

* I love being married!!! My husband is the most wonderful man ever! He's so super supportive and that is great. Although he fusses when I ask him to take out the trash, he is still amazing. I admire him for going out every day and putting his life on the line for the people in our city. He's the best husband anyone could ask for.

Okay.. I'm done with my random things. I think now I'm suppose to tag 6 people. I don't think I have 6 people to tag... so I may not make it to 6.

I'm tagging.... Tori Lauren

So it's not 6... so what!! Have fun!

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I have been a little down for the past couple of days. I guess I have been thinking about how I should have gone through ER and getting ready for ET. But.. maybe that will happen in Sept. I just hate that my body didn't cooperate. I've just been a little sad. Jeff said something the other day about us should have been getting pregnant this coming week. He's so sweet about everything. He's also very positive. I love that about him. And I love that he wants to go to every appointment with me big or small. He's been great through this whole thing. I just hope and pray that it works out next time. It will! I just need to get past these next few days and then look forward to our next IVF treatment.

Better luck next time

Well, IVF #1 got cancelled. We had our RE appointment on Friday (8/1/08) and he cancelled us. I had a lead follicle and the others weren't going to catch up. I'm just disappointed. I had to wait and write this so that I wouldn't cry through the whole thing. At least I was a little more prepared than I was on Wed. At least I knew there was a huge possibility that I was going to be cancelled. It just plain sucks. At least I know my follies had grown over the 2 days between appointments. And my lining had gotten thicker. It went from 3mm to 7mm. That's pretty good for me. RE said that we are going to do things different next time around. I think I will be on high doses of Follistim instead of starting low. We'll start high and then go low. We may use different Lupron to. He thinks that could have been part of the problem. He said it's just an expensive trial and error. That's for sure. He was so nice and didn't charge us for the ultrasound that day. He knows that we are private pay and that my insurance won't pick anything up when it's coded IVF so the u/s was on him. I love my doc! He's awesome. He made sure that we were okay and that we understood what was going on. The nurse kept saying she was so sorry. She couldn't imagine how disappointed we must be. She's so sweet. The receptionist was also so nice. She got so excited for us that we were doing this. She was apologetic as well. But she was very positive. I love that office!!!!! Great people!!!! RE put me on aygestin again. I'll do BCP's but not a whole lot of them. Maybe a couple of weeks. I have an "all quiet" visit on Aug. 15. We'll go from there as soon as AF shows. Our possible start date is Sept 13. At least we don't have to wait for months. Just really until AF shows and then the ball is rolling again. I just hope this time our ball doesn't go flat.

I know that God has a plan for everything. This was just a fork in the road He had for us. We know that God will show us the direction we are suppose to go. We know that when He's ready He will reveal his plan to us and show us when and where our baby will come from. This month just wasn't the month our baby was to be conceived. We have to put our trust in God that He will show us the direction we need to go. We'll get there... it's just slower and more curvier than we wanted.

At least we weren't told that we can't have childrent yet. RE still has hope for us. We are just glad that we didn't get to the ER and then him say.. oh.. by the way.. your eggs suck. Or something like that. I'm glad that we have a doctor that is proactive and wants the best for us. Although it's disappointing that we got cancelled we still have hope for next time.