New things...

Okay.. first of all... YAY.. I figured out how to change my blog around. I wanted something fun.. not just a boring background. So.. I will most likely be trying new backgrounds out. I'm not sure about this one. I love love love red. But, I think it's hard to read the text. So.. things may change.. who knows. Change isn't always bad. Well, that's about all I have right now. Life is pretty boring. Seems like I've been working tons. I think this week will be a lot less overtime. Which is good and sucks at the same time. I like the money that comes with overtime.. just not the hours. But, at least I will be able to get things done around the house.

Take care everyone. I hope you all are doing well. Adios for now.

Trying to get in the mood...

I'm still trying to get in the Christmas mood. It's been so hard. It's so close to Christmas and I could care less. I so love Christmas. It's my favorite holiday. This year.. not so much. We were so hoping for a wonderful Christmas present (ie being pregnant). We are trying to get over that. Yes, we have moved on to pursuing adoption, but that doesn't mean I'm not sad I can't have my own child. I still get really sad. I've been really sad the past couple of days. Most likely because I have been out and about Christmas shopping. It's hard to see all the families out together. And all the kids waiting in line to see Santa. Will I ever have that in my life? It just makes me sad. I know better things are coming.. I just have to wait for them. Waiting sucks!!!!! I just want a baby!

On a happier note Jeff and I went to his Christmas party for the police department. It was a lot of fun. Of course I helped plan part of it. I think everyone had a great time. I was really glad Jeff took the night off. It was nice to spend time with him. We don't do much of that because he is 2nd shift. We hate this shift, but we've gotten use to it. You just have to make the best of what little time we get to spend with each other. I actually had a glass of wine. It's the first wine or anything that I've had in over 3 years. I have to say it was yummy! :) Good times were had by all! I have posted the only 2 pictures that I have from that night. I'm hoping to get some from other people that were there. My camera is just too big to stick in a pocket. I guess that's the price you pay for not wanting and getting a smaller camera. On another note.. we are suppose to get yucky ice tonight and tomorrow. Gotta love it. I wish we'd get the snow but OH NO.. we have to get that crappy ice. I'm just hoping it won't be as bad as last years ice storm. That was crazy. Everyone was out of electricity for days and days (except Jeff and I.. we have a major power thing by our house so it's on the priority have to fix so others can be fixed so we are one of the first ones to get electricity first in the city).

Anyway. Well, I hope everyone is doing well. I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas!

Slow going

Well, just an update on our adoption process. SLOW!!! We are still researching though. And trying to find the money to do this. Wow. It's so crazy. I feel like I'm a wheel up on a jack... spinning and going nowhere! It's driving me crazy! But, we want to be sure we go with the right agency for us. We don't want to get burned by one that doesn't fit our wants and needs. So, I'm still researching. I'm getting ready to call a few of them next week. I have a list of questions ready to ask them. That's about it.

I took a few more pictures.. messing around and I think I will share them with ya'll. I got my film developed.. but.. they didn't tell me they don't print black and white, they just develope the film. How crazy is that. UGH. So now I have to find a place to print them. Geezle petes. Well, here are a few more that I was messing around with taking. Have a wonderful weekend everyone. And if I don't write anything before Thanksgiving, have a Happy Thanksgiving!!

Update on my friend

My friend Narong, who was in the accident, passed away today. Jeff just called me and said he had just talked to the officer that has been with the family. He was with a family member and said most of them had gone home. Jeff did not want the other officer to have to say he passed away in front of the family so he asked if he was 10-7 which means out of service. He said yes, 10-7. That's so sad. He was such a great guy! He would do anything for anyone!! He was one of those people that everyone loved. I've known him for so long. Gosh, it was almost 30 years. That's a long time to know someone. We take life for granted. It's so short. I know Narong will be truely missed! Keep his family in your prayers.

Prayers needed very much!!!!

I am asking for prayer for a friend of mine. He was in a HORRIBLE accident today. He was on his motorcycle and someone ran a red light and hit him. It's not good. He has LOTS of injuries. He wasn't wearing a helmet (grrrr). They have done brain surgery to relieve the swelling. They had to take one of his legs because there was no bone practically left in it. He is now in surgery (it started at 11:30pm) to try to stop the abdominal bleeding. It doesn't look good. They are afraid they will lose him when the open him up. Jeff was VERY glad he was not on shift today when that call came out.

I have been friends with him since the 3rd grade. I'm now 35 so that's a very long time. His family came to the US from Laos. My parents gave him his first birthday party (suprise party no less) ever! He is very well liked in our community. Please pray for him!!!! Please pray that God will put His healing hand on him. That the doctors will know exactly what to do. Please pray for his family!! I can't imagine what they are going through. He built his parents a home (the one he wanted to build for himself). He stopped by my parents house a week ago and told my dad that he was almost done paying off the house and he was going to buy his parents a car. He's very selfless! He's such a great guy!! Please keep him and his family in your prayers!!! Thank you all so very much!

Fall

I love this time of year. It's so pretty. And I like that it's not so stinkin' hot. I love to take pictures. We have this great walking trail in our neighborhood and it's so pretty right now. So, I took my cameras with me and took some pics. These are just a few. I took lots of film pics (I know.. very old fashioned) but I don't have them developed. I love to take film. Epecially with the great cameras that I have. I thought I would share a few of the pics with you all.

Not much else going on around here. Just researching adoption agencies and everything about adoption. Keep us in your prayers that we will choose the right one for us. Have a good one!!!

Where to start

I know it's been a while since I've done any blogging. I've just needed some time to think and reflect about the events that happened (the failed IVF). I'm doing much better. I've cried, I've been emotional and all that kind of stuff. I went out and bought new living room furniture because I wanted to. I do think I'm handling things rather well. I am sad that it failed and that I possibly won't ever know what my biological child looks like. But, on the same hand I'm excited about adoption. I'm excited about what is going to happen. I know it will be a long road ahead of us but we are ready to climb that mountain! We've always prayed for our child. God is leading us to our child. We never prayed specifically for our biological child, just our child. God is amazing. I know there was a reason why we went through all that we did. It has totally made Jeff and I stronger people. It has strengthened our marriage! I love my husband so very much. He's totally amazing. We are so ready to be parents. We know God has already chosen the baby he wants for us. We just have to keep the faith and pray and we will meet our child soon. How exciting is that. God chose us to be adoptive parents. He is picking our child out for us!

Now here comes the tough part. Where do we start? We have decided that we want to do domestic adoption. That means we are going to adopt a newborn for the good ol' USA. We want a newborn. We are trying to decide what agency to go through. That's the tough part. And, how to do the home study. Does the agency have someone do that or do you find someone to do that. YICKS! It's totally overwhelming! But it's exciting as well. I have learned a lot. I am reading a great book called The Ultimate Insiders Guide to Adoption. It's got great info in it. It has helped us a lot. I just need to keep reading it. We are telling everyone now what we have been through and that we are going to adopt. I think we should put the word out. Jeff's cousin's fiance works for an OBGYN who refuses to do abortion and refers the girls to an adoption agency. They are going to leave our names with the doctor. Maybe that will be something. Jeff's sister teaches Jazzersize and one of her students is a big person for the Catholic Charities Adoption Center. We are checking in to that. Have to see if you have to be Catholic or not. If so, we'll be moving on.

I'm excited to see where God will take us. It's so easy to lose faith because of all the negative things that have happened to us. But, I have actually grown in my faith because of this. I know God is doing something amazing in our lives! He's preparing our hearts for our child! Awesome! That's where we are right now. We are looking in to everything about adoption and praying that God will lead us to the right agency. Keep us in your prayers. I can't wait to see what happens. I'll keep ya'll updated on what is going on. Take care!!!!!!