ET went great

My ET went great. We transferred one 4 cell B+ embryo and one 4 cell C- embryo. We did a 2 day transfer. My RE was so nervous. It's funny to see the RE be nervous. I know we were but he was nervous right along with us. We watched the ET on an ultrasound screen. It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. I could see my babies being put into my uterus. Of course I cried. I even have a picture of my 2 babies. RE gave us the pic right before we did the ET. He said here's a picture of your babies that we are putting in. Awesome!!! The worst thing about the ET is the full bladder. ACK! I had to pee so bad. He made me let a little out because I was so full. RE said I was one of the easiest ET he's ever done. That's a good thing. I love my ET. He was putting a cap on and said.. wait.. let me go get my lucky cap. He's funny. He got me all ready for the ET and then called the embryologist in to actually put the embryos in. It's a great experience that I will never forget. It's amazing. One of the nurses talked us through the whole thing. She told us that the white things we were seeing on the screen were the embryos. WOW!!! Beautiful!

So all I've been doing for the past 2 days is laying in bed. UGH. It's worth it though. Jeff is taking good care of me. He won't let me do a thing. YAY me!! =) It's gonna be a good week. He's so sweet. I figured today I could get up and move to the sofa or recliner. I've watched a lot of movies and a lot of tv. More than I have in a long time that's for sure. Jeff even tried to make a salad for dinner last night. Good thing that's not the only thing we had bless his heart. Most of the lettuce was brown. Yuck. I still told him he did a good job. He tried that's what counts.

It's crazy to think that I have my babies inside of me. I just hope they are attaching and planning on staying awhile. I never thought I would be here where I am today. But who really thinks they are going to have problems having a baby? I figured that since my twin sister got pregnant quick we wouldn't have a problem. We were wrong. God just gave us a lot more obstacles to go through. I have truely learned that I need to trust God and lean on Him in rough times. I don't think I could have done this without that. God knows what will happen way before we ever thought about it. We just have to put our faith in Him and let him guide us.

Well, I think I'm gonna go lay down again. I took the whole week off and I plan on being VERY lazy! It will be nice not to have to go to work this week. Oh before I go.. I'm gonna post a picture of my babies!! YAY!!!! So, ya'll keep praying for us and that our babies will stick around. Have a great day!!!!!!

Fert Report

I got my fert report today. Out of the 9 eggs 6 of them were mature. Only 2 fertilized. We did ICSI on all of them too! I don't get it. How can they not fertilize. Dude.. the sperm goes directly into the egg. But I shouldn't complain. I have 2 embryos!!! We are doing the ET tomorrow. RE said there was no decision to make so we are doing it tomorrow at 8:30am. I'm nervous. I'm excited. I will have my little embies inside me! WOW!! That's a great thought. Jeff said that those to were our kids. We are praying that they make it through the night. We hope they are strong ready to settle in for 9 months. The whole things is just crazy to think about. I was really disappointed when my RE told me the news. He asked me if I was in a private place where we could talk. I knew it wasn't the best news. I was just hoping we had at least one. We got 2!!

I never in my wildest dreams thought I would be where I am today. I never thought that I would ever say IVF unless I was talking about someone else. Never thought it would be me. God had totally different plans for me. From day 1 He's had different plans. We were hoping that we would have embies to freeze. Again.. God had different plans. I just have to know and trust that God is leading me to where I am suppose to be. Trust and obey. You learn a lot about your self when dealing with infertility. I've learned that I really need to trust and rely on God through this whole thing. I can't get mad because something didn't work out the way I wanted it to. It's not up to me. My life has already been planned out for me WAY before I was even born. Now I really have to trust God. I pray that our embies make it tomorrow. I pray that they will stick.

I have so much going through my head right now. I know I can't write it all down. I'm asking for prayer for our embies. For us. For guidance. It's just hard. I'm so very thankful that I have 2. I could have had none at this point. God has blessed me!! I do feel very blessed. I just need prayers right now. I'm excited about tomorrow. I'm nervous about tomorrow. I will try to update sometime soon. Probably not tomorrow. RE told me to rent a bunch of movies that I haven't seen because I'm not getting out of bed. So, when I can get out of bed I will let ya'll know how things went and are going. Thanks for listening to me rant. Keep us in your prayers. Have a wonderful weekend.

ER went great!!!!!

ER went really well today. They got 9 eggies!!!! YAY!!!!!!! I am thrilled!!!!!!!! My RE said that he poked something and I bled a little but he put pressure on it and it was okay. I feel really good! Not much cramping. Just a little loopy. I'll know tomorrow how many fertilized. So if you are praying people please pray that they fertilize and grow. I don't really know what else to say. I found out that I'm my nurses favorite patient. That made me feel good. I love her. I love that office. I love my RE!!!!! Well, I'm gonna go lay in bed and drink my gatorade. Jeff is bringing me chinese food. YUM! I'm starving like marvin. I'll update ya later on how things are going.

ER is Thursday!!!!

I have made it to ER. I get to do my trigger shot at 1:30am this morning. YAY!!!! I'm super excited about getting to ER. I had an appointment today. My lining was at 12mm (best ever!!), my E2 level was 2600. I didn't have to take any Follistim today! He said my follies were good. I have 4 really good ones and a few that are a bit smaller. He thinks maybe they might catch up but he's not really worried about it. I have so much going through my head right now I don't know how I'm going to sleep. I just want Thursday to get here. RE is thinking ET will be Sunday. I just pray that our eggies fertilize and grow and implant in my plump lining. I'm glad I wasn't cancelled this cycle. Jeff has told me that whatever happens is what is meant to be. I agree. It's all in God's hands. It always has been. He's totally in control of our lives. We just have to let Him take over.

I'm ready for this! I know Jeff is totally going to take care of me. He said he didn't want me doing ANYTHING. I have taken the next week off of work to just be lazy. I think it will be good for me. I need a little break from work anyway. They will just think I'm on vacation. They have no idea that we are doing IVF. That way I don't get tons of questions and stuff. We both like it that way.

I know I will be posting on Thursday. I know I'll have lots to post about. I want to see if Jeff can take pics of me before I go in to the ER. We'll see. I think I'm going to ask them if I can wear the pendant that the lady at church gave me. I asked the nurse today if I had to take off my polish on my toes. I don't!! YAY. I don't like naked toes. Hehehe. I'm silly like that. Well, I will post more later. I'm sure I'll have a story. Please keep us in your prayers.

It's getting there

I had an appointment today with the RE. Things are looking good. I had 5-7 follies that are ready. YAY!!! I go back tomorrow to see if any more caught up and to discuss when I will do my trigger shot and when ER is. He said it was more than likely going to be Thursday. YAY!!! I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. He seemed really pleased with how todays appointment went. My E2 level was 1540. That's great for me. And my lining was 10mm!!! That's the best that it has ever been. Go me!!!! I have this really full feeling. I can't eat much.. but that's okay. So I'll find out tomorrow when all this is going to go down. YAY!!!! I can't be more excited that my body cooperated (somewhat). Well, I know I'll update again tomorrow. My boss was excited. I went in and told her I had to go back tomorrow and she was thrilled. Then she told me she was giving me a raise!!!!!!! It is such a blessing! We need it to pay some of this debt off. Then she asked me if I get pregnant if I'm going to come back to work. Well, yeah if we can afford daycare and me working yes. I'd have to. Otherwise... nope! Well, that's it for now. I'm sure there will be more tomorrow.

Why??????

I had another appointment today with the RE. They did u/s and E2. My lining had jumped from a 3 yesterday to a 7 today. YAY for that! My follies.. well... that's a different story. I had 4 follies around 10-11mm. The rest are not so bueno. RE told me that usually when they have 3 or less follies the cancel. He said I was borderline so he's not cancelling yet. YET??? ACK!!!! He did tell me that when him and his wife go to NYC they are going to St. Johns. He said it was the biggest or one of the biggest churches there. He told us he was going to pray for us that our follies get big like the church. He's so sweet. I don't want to be cancelled again. I don't know if I can handle that! I got back on Monday to check to see if the smaller follies have caught up to the bigger ones. He really wants to get lots of follies out of me. I don't know that that is going to happen. My E2 level was at 380 something. I missed the last number. Oh well. It's gone up since yesterday. So that's good. I don't get why part of my body is willing to cooperate while the other part isn't. Get it together would ya!!!! Can't we all just get along??? I want everything to work. UGH! So I'm going to pray really hard that my follies catch up with each other. I know it's all in God's hands. I have to accept that which ever way this goes. I just know that it is going to be really hard and sad if I get cancelled. BUT, I'm not getting cancelled!!!!! This is going to work. Just like the little engine that could. My small follies need to start saying.. I think I can I think I can.

Say prayers for me that my follies will catch up with each other and that everything goes smoothly. I'm tired of the roadblocks and stuff I've had to take. I'm sure I'll write on Monday when I find out how things are going.

Things are working!!!

My body is somewhat cooperating this go around. I'm still praying really hard that it continues to go well. I had an RE appt. today. We did u/s and E2. My RE called me and told me that my E2 was 239!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He told me last time at stim day 5 it was 37.8. Much better. And I had LOTS of follies!!! I even had some on the left side. They were bigger than last time and more than last time. I have several that are between 9-10mm. I don't think they ever got that big last time. I am to continue doing 225iu of Follistim twice a day. I guess my body like the high dose of Follistim. I know I'm going to have to have him call in more Follistim. I'm gonna run out over the weekend. I was soooo super excited when our RE called. He seemed really please. He was crackin' me up. He said to make sure Jeff took care of me today and to have a wonderful day and just kept going with funny little things. He's such a hoot. I go back tomorrow for another u/s (I think) and E2. It was suppose to be Friday but he is taking his wife to NYC. How nice of him! Jeff and I were at the State Fair today when the RE called. I had looked at a purse (I'm really not a purse girl) that I thought was cute. He told me to buy it and celebrate my little victory! YAY!! My hubby is so sweet! I love him!!!!!

I just needed to share my good news. I'm praying that this works. If we get to the ER (which we will) I'll be relieved. Then to the ET. Then.... drum roll please.... to the positive beta. This is going to work!!!! Welp, that's my update for today. I'm very excited. I'll have more later!!! Keep your prayers going for us. They are much needed and VERY appreciated!

Here's an update

I went to the RE yesterday. He called and said to continue doing the 225iu of Follistim twice a day. Yicks. That is SO much medicine!!! I've already reordered one cartridge so I don't run out. I only have on more refill. He said my E2 level was 85.4. Not so good. DANG IT!!!! Why doesn't my body freakin' work??? It hates me. He said it has gone up so he just wants me to keep doing what I'm doing. I know it should be way higher than that. I go back tomorrow for E2 and u/s. We'll see where I stand there. I'm so hoping things have gotten better. Why is it so hard for me? Why doesn't my body cooperate? I just don't get it. I'm really, really hoping that my E2 level goes up. It needs a kick in the butt! My RE didn't seemed worried yet. So, I guess I'll wait and see.

At church on Sunday, a lady gave my mom a pendant to give to me. It is a a gold fruit basket with a few pearls on the side. Anyway. She knows that Jeff and I have had trouble getting pregnant. She has no clue what all we've done, just that my mom asks her sunday school class to pray for us. She told my mom that someone had given it to her daughter because she was having trouble getting pregnant. She got pregnant. So, she wanted to pass it along to me and just let me know that she is praying for me. As my mom is telling me this (at church) I'm in tears. It really means a lot when you know that people are praying for you. They want the best for you. It was so super sweet. I'm gonna write her a thank you letter. That's actually one of the nicest things anyone has done for me.

Tomorrow after my appointment we are going to the State Fair. YAY!!! I finally get to spend some time with Jeff. We haven't seen much of each other lately. Stupid criminals. So, I'm gonna pack my meds in an ice chest and go to the fair. I'm hoping it will keep cool the whole time we are there. It should because I usually put a million ice packs in there with it. I'm excited about the fair food. Yum!!!! It's always so not good for you.. but sooooo good!!! I can't wait.

Ya'll keep me in your prayers. Pray that if it's God's will that my E2 levels increase and we see lots of follies in the u/s tomorrow. Take care!!

I swear my body hates me...

Today was my baseline u/s. I was excited because here I am thinking they are gonna find lots of follies. Well, that didn't happen. I know it's still early and all that crap but it just upsets me. I had 7 or 8 follies on the right side. Then he dug and dug to try to find the ones on the left. Then the RE says.. well.. I have to say no follies found on the left side. Well crap!!!! I swear my body hates me!!! It's like a sick joke. I'm hoping that by Monday he will be able to find some. I will start my Lupron tomorrow and then Follistim Sat. Maybe that will kick the follies in gear. Needless to say I was disappointed with my appointment. My RE didn't say much. He seemed to think it was okay. He told me that since I stopped bcp on Monday that I might get AF but not to worry if I don't. It's not that big of a deal. I do like my RE though. He's great. He was telling me that the weekend before our ER he is taking his wife to NYC to see a Broadway play or musical.. or whatever they feel like doing. He's doing it for her birthday. Such a nice guy. ANYWAY.

Well, maybe my body will start cooperating with me. I'm praying that God's will be shown to us. If we are ment to be biological parents then that would be fantastic to us! I am praying for God's guidance to lead me down the path He wants us to take. I just want my stupid body to cooperate and work. I'm no spring chicken.. but dang it I'm not an old fart either.

That's about it today. I'm sure from here on out I'll be updating regularly. I'm excited about this IVF and really really nervous and scared also. I just don't want it to turn out like last time. It's not going to. It's totally going to work. Positive attitude!!!

Finally!!!!

Okay... I finally am able to get on the internet again! They couldn't fix our screen so they gave us a new one! YAY!!!!! Well, there's not been much going on though. I started bcp's. I don't think I like these. I think they have made me a little sick. Speaking of sick.. I got the fantastic stomach virus that has been going around. Yay me! That was fun. I went to the RE on the 2nd. I did my "clap test" and then we went and had our 5 vials of blood drawn. I hate that!!!!! My ball is rolling fast. I stop bcp on Sept. 8th and then go to the RE on the 10th. I start microdose Lupron on the 11th and Follistim on the 13th. Wow. It's coming up so fast! I'm super excited! Well, that's about it. I gotta go plan a Christmas party for the PD.

That's about it for now. I'm sure there will be lots more later!! YAY!!!!